i was sitting with my eyes closed in a train, not too happy to be up this early and all of a sudden i felt this oneness rise deep in my gut. you know that feeling when you sit in zazen and you become overwhelmed with ultimate oneness, love, stillness of vibrations in the air, anything you wish to call it.. i was sitting right there and i was feeling it, this complete existence expanding and filling the air around me with pure love. love towards each living being, love towards our mother – earth, love for the sky and for the rain it brings, perfect harmony.
that feeling, when you walk barefoot onto the wet morning grass and you see the sun far in the horizon. all life comes together, in that oneness and that stillness, we are all connected to each other, in that stillness is where we are given – love. indescribable & pure, love of the very existence.
i am afraid our children will never see the great forests and lakes, they will see the earth that’s been abused. i wish our children would look into the eyes of another being and see them with compassion and kindness. i want our children to develop their souls, because it is their souls that will carry them on. it is their souls they must learn from and listen quietly to their hearts. it is not in our nature to harm one another, it is not in our nature to harm our mother. we have created another ego – an ego that gets lost in the world that is constantly in turmoil and chaos.
every morning i enter a reality where i am judged by looks, words, movements…every morning, when i step through a door i know there will be a world of chaos. an organized, moving chaos, where everybody rushes from point A to point B, where nobody stops and observes.. i meet beautiful people every day, i greet every being with same love and respect, but sometimes it gets tough. there’s frustration, there’s chaos, there’s no stillness around. in those moments i have to remind myself to take a deep breath and focus on my sadhana. all it takes in the most chaotic of times, is to focus on my ājňā and all else falls into place. i didn’t realize it at first, and i would become more frustrated, but with time and learning, it all becomes right how it should be. i focus on my ājňā, and i remind myself where my heart is. and in that moment i bring myself back to the stillness of the universe, right to the very core of my being. it’s hard to find the balance between my reality, and the other – chaotic reality. they are two different worlds, so similar, yet so separate to me. it has been my goal so far to find the right balance, where both of these worlds can co-exist and benefit from each other. and maybe after all this time, i have finally found that fine line, that separates yet brings the two together. and all i know, is that no matter how chaotic it gets, all i have to do is focus right on my ājňā, and it will take me home….